Ellen DeGeneres‘ last standup special has premiered on Netflix and the former daytime talk show host opened up about getting “canceled.”

During her Netflix special, DeGeneres talks about going to therapy to deal with the backlash she received following claims of creating a toxic work environment on her daily show.

“I was in therapy for a while trying to deal with all the hatred that was coming at me. It was not a common situation for a therapist to deal with,” DeGeneres said in the comedy special For Your Approval. “At one point, my therapist said, ‘Ellen where do you get this idea that everyone hates you?’ And I said, ‘Well, New York Times, The Washington Post, Entertainment Weekly, Us Weekly, I think Elmo may have said something recently on an episode of Sesame Street.”

DeGeneres continued, “She said, ‘Well I think you just need to avoid looking at the news, just avoid media.’ I said, ‘I am. I’m not looking at anything.’ But I would always know when something was going on because I’d start getting texts from friends saying thinking of you or sending love.”

The comedian also joked about having her talk show canceled saying she “got kicked out of show business.”

“The ‘be kind’ girl wasn’t kind – that was the headline,” she said. “Here’s the problem: I am a comedian who got a talk show and I ended the show every day by saying, ‘Be kind to one another.’ Had I ended my show by saying ‘go f*** yourselves,’ people would’ve been pleasantly surprised to find out I’m kind.”